The oxytocin drain hit my bloodstream like an ice bath. I watched his face and felt absolutely nothing.
My left wrist was flashing. A tiny, rhythmic red pulse under the skin. It matched the thumping in my temples. Three quick beats, a pause, three quick beats. Low battery. The Aura-Sync implant was dying.
I sat on the edge of the rusted folding chair and watched the diode blink. It was freezing in the safehouse. The autumn air in Neo-Kowloon didn't drift; it scraped. It came through the cracked window glass and bit into my exposed ankles. I pulled my knees to my chest, wrapping my arms around my shins. My jaw was locked so tight my molars ached. I tried to force my teeth apart, but the muscle tension was hardwired into the chemical withdrawal.
He wasn't back yet.
James had been gone for two hours. A standard supply run to the lower sectors. Water, protein packs, synthetic stabilizers. It should have taken forty minutes. My foot started tapping against the linoleum. Tap, tap, tap. A frantic, ugly little rhythm. The oxytocin levels in my bloodstream were plummeting. I could feel the exact millimeter where the artificial warmth ended and my actual, unmedicated panic began. It felt like cold water spreading under my collarbones.
I stared at the door. It was heavy reinforced steel, covered in scratches and peeling gray paint. I wanted him to walk through it. I needed him to walk through it. But the terrifying part was that I didn't know if I wanted him because I loved him, or because the chip in my arm was screaming for its paired bio-signature.
The metal handle slammed downward.
I flinched, my hand instinctively dropping to the mag-pistol on the crate next to me. The heavy door swung inward, scraping violently against the uneven floor.
James shoved his way inside. He kicked the door shut behind him with his heel and hit the locking bar. He was breathing hard. His dark hair was plastered to his forehead with sweat, despite the freezing temperature. He threw his canvas duffel bag onto the cot. It hit the thin mattress with a heavy, unceremonious thud.
"You took the long way," I said.
"The primary route was blocked," he said. He didn't look at me. He was staring at the floor, aggressively stripping off his damp jacket. "Checkpoint on 4th and Pike. Two enforcers scanning retinas. I had to double back through the alleyways."
"Did they see you?"
"I said I doubled back, Maria. Obviously they didn't see me."
He threw the jacket over a chair. His hands were shaking. I watched his fingers twitch as he unzipped the duffel bag. The frantic, uncoordinated movements of someone running on excess adrenaline. He started pulling out vacuum-sealed protein blocks and tossing them onto the folding table.
"You're moving too fast," I said.
"I'm moving at a normal speed," he snapped. "You're just sitting there analyzing me. Stop analyzing me."
"I'm not analyzing you. You're vibrating. You're going to knock something over."
"I'm fine."
He knocked over the water canister. It hit the floor, rolling away under the cot. We both stared at it. Neither of us moved to pick it up.
"Did you get the stabilizers?" I asked. My voice came out flat. Flat and cold.
James braced his hands on the table. He stared at the blank wall in front of him. The neon sign from the noodle shop across the street flickered, casting harsh, stuttering pink light across his cheekbones. He looked exhausted. He looked twenty-four going on fifty.
"James. Did you get the stabilizers?"
"The vendor was out," he said.
I stood up. The folding chair screeched against the linoleum. "Out? What do you mean out? It's Sector 4. They never run out of basic chemical stabilizers."
"Well, they did," he said. He turned to face me. His eyes were wide, defensive. "I asked the guy. I offered triple the credits. He didn't have them. What do you want me to do, Maria? Synthesize them from the dust on the floor?"
"Did you check the secondary vendor? Down by the transit hub?"
"I told you there was a checkpoint!"
"So you just gave up?"
"I didn't give up! I made a tactical decision not to get arrested by corporate security!"
"A tactical decision," I repeated. I looked at my wrist. The red light flashed. Three beats. Pause. Three beats. "My battery is dying, James."
He looked at my arm. I saw the muscle in his jaw jump. He stepped toward me, reaching out. "Let me see it."
"Don't touch me," I said, stepping back.
His hand hovered in the air, then dropped. The hurt flashed across his face, immediate and sharp. But the weird thing was, I didn't feel the sympathetic pull. Usually, when he was hurt, the implant flooded me with a desperate urge to comfort him. To close the distance. To bond.
Now? I just saw a guy who failed to get what we needed.
"It's at four percent," I said, staring at the diode. "Maybe less. The oxytocin feed is already stuttering. I can feel the lag."
"I have a spare battery in the pack," he said, turning back to the duffel. He started digging frantically through the loose items. "I bought a generic rig. It's not perfectly compatible but I can splice the connector."
"You're going to splice a power source into my nervous system with a pocket knife?"
"Yes! If it keeps the bond online!"
He pulled out a small, rectangular battery pack. The casing was cracked.
"Look at that thing," I said. "It's junk. It'll short out the whole implant."
"It's better than letting the bond drop," he said. He walked toward me again. "Maria, sit down. Let me swap it."
"No."
"Maria, please. You know what happens when it hits zero. The withdrawal is catastrophic. You're going to crash."
"I'm already crashing," I said. I looked right into his eyes. They were brown, bloodshot, frantic. I felt distant. Like I was watching him through a thick pane of glass. "Why didn't you go to the transit hub, James?"
"I told you. The enforcers."
"You could have bypassed them. You've done it a hundred times."
"It was too risky!"
"Or maybe you were just scared. Maybe you panicked."
"I didn't panic!"
"You always panic! You panicked in the lab when we stole the formula, you panicked at the border, and you panicked today!"
The words hit the air and hung there. Ugly. True. I watched him absorb them. The neon light outside flickered again. Pink, then black. Pink, then black.
"I stole this formula for you," he said. His voice dropped to a harsh whisper. "I left my brother. I left my job. I became a fugitive. For you. For us."
"For the chemical," I corrected him.
"Don't say that."
"It's the truth. We coded a synthetic romance, James. We hacked our own endocrine systems because we were too cowardly to see if we actually liked each other."
"We love each other."
"My wrist is blinking red, James. If you love me, why is it that the only thing holding us together requires a lithium-ion charge?"
He threw the battery onto the table. It slid off the edge and clattered onto the floor. "You're just going through withdrawal. You don't mean this."
"I do mean it. I miss real feelings. I miss the pain of a real breakup. This? This prolonged, artificial, suffocation? It's worse. It's so much worse."
Before he could answer, a massive, concussive boom echoed down the street. The floorboards under my boots vibrated violently.
The window rattled in its frame. Dust drifted down from the ceiling in a fine, gray curtain.
James froze. His eyes snapped toward the window. "That wasn't a transit train."
I moved instantly. The lethargy of the withdrawal vanished, replaced by pure, unadulterated survival instinct. I grabbed the mag-pistol off the crate. The metal grip was freezing. I slammed the power cell into the base. It hummed to life, a high-pitched whine that set my teeth on edge.
"Check the perimeter feed," I said.
James scrambled to the folding table, throwing open his cracked terminal. He hammered the keys. Lines of green code cascaded across the shattered screen.
"Camera three is down," he said. His voice was entirely different now. Clinical. Fast. "Camera four is... shit."
I stepped up behind him. The grainy night-vision feed from the alleyway showed three armored figures stacking up against the downstairs security gate. They were wearing corporate matte-black tactical gear. The bio-hound at their feet was a grotesque mass of cybernetic muscle and sensory arrays, its metallic jaws dripping with synthetic saliva.
"They tracked you," I said. I didn't yell. The time for yelling was over.
"I swept my bio-signature," James said, his hands flying across the keyboard. "I masked the trail. I dumped the scrubbers in the canal."
"They didn't track your scrubbers. They tracked your sweat. You were panicking. You probably left a stress-cortisol trail a mile wide."
"Stop blaming me and pack the drives!"
I turned away from the terminal. I grabbed my backpack and started sweeping the hard drives off the table. I didn't bother organizing them. I just shoved them in. Every line of code for the Aura-Sync formula. Everything we had ruined our lives for.
"They're breaching the gate," James said.
A second concussive blast shook the building. The sound of rending metal screeched up the stairwell.
"Balcony," I said. "Now."
I slung the backpack over my shoulders. It was heavy, the straps digging into my collarbones. James grabbed his duffel bag and the generic battery pack off the floor. He shoved it into his pocket.
We ran to the back of the apartment. The balcony was a narrow strip of rusted grating hanging over a four-story drop into a junk-filled alley. The autumn wind hit me like a physical blow as I kicked the door open. It was bitter, carrying the biting chill of November.
I looked over the edge. The drop was sheer, but the fire escape from the adjacent building was about six feet away across the gap.
"Jump it," I said.
James looked down at the dark, jagged piles of scrap metal four stories below. "It's too far. The grating is wet."
"Jump the gap, James, or they're going to put a bullet in your spine and drag us back to the lab."
Heavy boots pounded on the stairs inside the building. They were moving fast. The hound let out a mechanical, digitized shriek that made the hair on my arms stand up.
James climbed onto the railing. He balanced for a split second, his boots slipping slightly on the wet metal, and launched himself across the gap. He hit the opposite fire escape hard, his chest slamming against the iron railing. He grunted in pain but pulled himself over.
"Go!" he yelled, waving his arm.
The apartment door behind me exploded inward.
I didn't look back. I vaulted the railing and pushed off with both legs. The cold air rushed past my face. For one terrifying second, there was nothing under my feet. Then my boots slammed onto the iron grating of the fire escape. My knees buckled. I fell forward, scraping my palms raw against the rusted metal.
Gunfire erupted from our apartment. Blue plasma bolts scorched the brick wall inches from my head, showering my neck in burning stone fragments.
"Move!" I screamed, scrambling to my feet.
We ran down the fire escape, taking the iron stairs three at a time. The noise of our boots clanging against the metal echoed through the narrow alley. The plasma bolts continued to rain down from above, but the angle was bad. They were just trying to suppress us.
We hit the ground level. The alley was dark, littered with discarded fusion batteries and soaked cardboard. I sprinted toward the street, my lungs burning. The cold air felt like razor blades in my chest.
Behind us, the bio-hound hit the alley floor. It hadn't taken the stairs. It had just jumped from the second story. The heavy thud of its reinforced legs hitting the pavement was followed immediately by the rapid, terrifying clicking of its metallic claws accelerating toward us.
"It's on us!" James yelled.
I reached into my belt pouch. My fingers closed around a smooth, spherical object. A pheromone grenade. We had stolen a crate of them from corporate security a month ago. I pulled the pin with my thumb and threw it hard over my shoulder without breaking stride.
It detonated with a soft, concussive pop.
A thick cloud of gray gas expanded instantly, filling the narrow alleyway. The gas was packed with concentrated sensory overloads—synthetic predator pheromones designed to fry a bio-hound's olfactory processors.
The hound hit the gas cloud and let out a violently distorted electronic scream. The sound of its claws stopped, replaced by the chaotic thrashing of metal against brick as its tracking systems crashed.
We burst out of the alley and into the Sector 4 night market.
The transition was jarring. From the pitch-black, freezing alley into a blinding wall of neon and humanity.
The night market was packed. Hundreds of bodies moving in a slow, undulating tide beneath a canopy of holographic advertisements. Sizzling grease popped violently on metal griddles. Vendors yelled in a mix of Cantonese and corporate English. Sparks showered down from overhead welding stations, burning brief, bright trails through the damp air.
We plunged into the crowd. I used my shoulders as a wedge, shoving past a group of tech-scrappers arguing over a pile of burnt-out circuit boards.
"Keep your head down!" I yelled back to James.
He was right behind me, his hand gripping the back of my jacket. It was a tactical hold, but I could feel his fingers trembling.
"They have drones!" he shouted over the noise of the crowd. "They'll deploy thermal scans!"
"Then we stay under the awnings. Stay in the heat signatures!"
I dragged him toward the center of the market, weaving through the tight, claustrophobic aisles. Overhead, the sky was completely obscured by tangled power lines and heavy canvas tarps. Water dripped down from the tarps, cold and erratic, hitting my face and sliding down my neck.
I looked up. Through a gap in the canvas, I saw the sleek, black silhouette of a corporate drone banking sharply against the neon-lit clouds. It was projecting a wide, pale blue scanning laser across the rooftops.
"They're locking down the sector," I said. I ducked under a hanging string of synthetic ducks at a food stall. "We need to get off the grid. Completely offline."
"The hydroponic farm," James said, panting heavily. "Four blocks east. It's been abandoned since the water riots. The power grid is totally severed."
"Are the basements intact?"
"They should be. It's deep enough to block thermal."
"Let's go."
We pushed faster. The crowd was a blur of faces, digital tattoos, and wet synthetic clothing. My boots slipped on the oily pavement. Every time someone bumped into me, my hand twitched toward my mag-pistol. The paranoia was spiking. The oxytocin withdrawal was accelerating it, peeling away the artificial calm and leaving my nervous system completely exposed.
My wrist beeped. A sharp, singular warning tone.
I glanced down. The diode was blinking rapidly now. Continuous red. Less than one percent.
A cold sweat broke out across my back. My vision tunneled for a fraction of a second. The edges of the night market blurred, the neon lights smearing into long, meaningless streaks of pink and green. My knees felt weak.
"Maria?" James said. He noticed the stumble. He always noticed. "Hold on. Just hold on."
"I'm fine. Run."
We broke out of the market's eastern edge. The density of the crowd vanished, replaced by empty, desolate streets lined with shuttered storefronts. The corporate sector towered in the distance, a massive, glittering monolith of glass and steel, but down here, it was just concrete and shadows.
We sprinted down the middle of the street. There was no cover, just the desperate need for speed. My lungs felt like they were bleeding. Every breath tasted like copper and cold dust.
Up ahead, the massive, domed structure of the abandoned hydroponic farm loomed in the dark. Its glass panels were shattered, the steel framing rusted and warped. It looked like the skeleton of a massive, dead insect.
James reached the chain-link fence first. He didn't bother looking for a gate. He jumped, hooking his fingers into the wire mesh, and scrambled over. I followed, throwing my backpack over first, then hauling myself up. The wire cut into my palms, fresh pain layering over the scrapes from the fire escape.
I dropped down onto the dead, overgrown grass on the other side.
"This way," James whispered, picking up my bag and tossing it to me.
We ran toward the main entrance. The glass doors were smashed. We stepped carefully through the jagged opening, the broken glass crunching loudly under our boots.
The interior of the farm was massive and completely dark. The air inside was freezing, colder even than the street outside. Massive cylindrical glass tanks stretched up toward the ceiling, filled with dried, dead plant matter and cracked bio-soil.
"Stairwell is over there," James said, pointing to a dark corner.
We moved quickly, keeping our backs to the walls. We found the metal door leading to the sublevels. It was heavy, but it wasn't locked. James pulled it open, and we descended into the absolute darkness of the basement.
We went down three flights. The air grew still, heavy, and dead. No wind. No neon. Just the absolute silence of concrete and earth.
At the bottom, James pushed open another door. We stepped into a large, windowless utility room. He pulled a small chemical light stick from his pocket, cracked it, and threw it onto the floor. It bathed the room in a sickly, pale green glow.
I dropped my backpack. It hit the concrete floor with a heavy thud. I backed up until my shoulders hit the wall, and I slid down until I was sitting on the freezing floor. I pulled my knees up, wrapping my arms around them.
"We made it," James said, leaning against the door, breathing heavily. "Thermal can't penetrate this deep. The drones will sweep right over us."
I didn't answer.
My wrist beeped three times in rapid succession.
Then, a long, flat tone.
The red light went solid for one second.
And then it died.
The crash was immediate and violent.
It didn't feel like a gradual fading. It felt like someone had driven a steel spike through the center of my chest and pulled out everything soft. My hands began to shake uncontrollably. My teeth chattered, biting into my tongue. I tasted blood.
The synthetic bond, the chemical bridge that had tied my nervous system to James for the past eighteen months, evaporated.
I looked at him across the green-lit room. He was still panting, wiping sweat from his forehead. He looked up at me, and I expected to feel the rush of affection. The overwhelming, programmed need to make sure he was safe.
I felt nothing.
No, not nothing. I felt an immense, crushing wave of regret. I looked at his face—the slope of his nose, the dark circles under his eyes, the grease on his cheek—and he looked like a stranger. A stranger I had ruined my life for.
"Maria?" he asked. His voice sounded far away.
He stepped toward me. He reached out to touch my shoulder.
I flinched violently, slapping his hand away. "Don't."
He recoiled like I had burned him. He looked down at my wrist. The screen was completely black. No diode. No pulse.
"It's dead," he whispered.
"It's gone," I said. My voice was shaking. I hated that it was shaking. "The feed is offline."
Panic seized his face. Real, unfiltered panic. He dropped to his knees in front of me, digging frantically into his pockets. He pulled out the generic battery pack and a small multi-tool.
"Give me your arm," he said, his hands moving erratically. "I can splice it. I just need to open the casing. I can jumpstart the dopamine receptors."
"Stop it," I said, pulling my arm back.
"Maria, give me your arm! You're crashing! I can fix it!"
"I don't want you to fix it!"
He froze. The multi-tool slipped from his fingers and clattered onto the concrete. He stared at me, his chest heaving. The pale green light cast horrific, exaggerated shadows across his face. He looked pathetic. He looked desperate.
"What are you saying?" he asked. His voice cracked.
"I'm saying leave it alone. Look at me, James. Really look at me."
He stared at my face.
"What do you feel right now?" I asked.
"I feel... I feel like I'm losing you."
"Because your implant is still running at sixty percent. You're feeling the programmed anxiety of a severed connection. But look at me. Look at my face. Do I look like I love you?"
He stared. I didn't soften my expression. I let the absolute, cold reality of my face sit there in the dark. I didn't hate him. I just didn't love him. The realization was heavier than the concrete above us. We had stolen millions of credits worth of intellectual property. We had abandoned our families. We had become hunted animals. And we had done it all for a feeling that came out of a syringe.
"We can turn it back on," he whispered, a tear cutting through the dirt on his cheek. "Please."
"If we turn it back on, we're just lying to ourselves until the next battery dies. We're junkies, James. We're not lovers. We're junkies."
A heavy, metallic thud echoed from the ceiling above us.
We both snapped our heads up.
Dust drifted down from the concrete seams. Another thud. Heavier this time. Then the unmistakable sound of a high-yield plasma cutter igniting. A bright orange glow began to trace a circle in the metal door at the top of the stairwell.
"They found us," James said. The desperation in his voice vanished, replaced by a hollow, terrifying certainty.
"The hound," I said, standing up. My legs felt like lead, but the adrenaline of the fight was bypassing the chemical crash. "It didn't need to smell you. It tracked the acoustic signature of your boots when we ran down the street."
"We're trapped."
"No, we're not." I grabbed my backpack and threw it over my shoulders. I drew the mag-pistol. "There's a maintenance tunnel at the back of this sub-level. It connects to the old subway lines. Move."
James didn't argue. He left the battery pack and the multi-tool on the floor. He picked up his duffel bag and drew his own weapon.
The metal door at the top of the stairs blew inward with a deafening crash. Heavy boots pounded on the metal grating. Flashlight beams cut through the darkness, sweeping down the stairwell.
"Move!" I yelled.
We ran toward the back of the utility room. The flashlight beams hit us.
"Targets acquired!" a synthesized voice boomed from the stairs. "Lethal force authorized!"
Plasma bolts tore through the air, superheating the damp space. One bolt struck the concrete wall right next to my head, exploding in a shower of sparks and pulverized rock. I spun around, raised my pistol, and fired three blind shots up the stairwell. I didn't wait to see if I hit anything.
James hit the maintenance hatch. It was rusted shut.
"Help me!" he screamed.
I grabbed the metal wheel alongside him. We pulled. Not out of synchronized love, but out of desperate, ugly survival. The wheel shrieked, the rust flaking off into our hands. The hatch popped open.
We threw ourselves into the dark tunnel just as the utility room behind us was saturated with plasma fire. The heavy metal hatch clanged shut, plunging us into absolute blackness.
We ran blindly. The tunnel was perfectly round, the walls slick with condensation. We ran until my lungs seized, until my legs refused to carry me any further. We ran until the sound of the enforcers faded into the heavy silence of the underground.
We eventually spilled out onto a deserted subway platform. The fluorescent lights flickered violently. A rusted, automated train sat idling on the tracks, its doors open.
We dragged ourselves onto the train.
I sat down on a plastic seat at the far end of the car. I dropped my backpack between my boots. I leaned my head back against the scratched glass of the window, staring up at the stained ceiling.
James walked into the car. He stopped. He looked at me, sitting at the far end.
He didn't walk toward me. He didn't try to close the distance. He walked to the opposite end of the car, thirty feet away, and sat down. He put his duffel bag on the seat next to him and buried his face in his hands.
The doors chimed, a cheerful, automated sound that felt violently out of place. The doors slid shut, sealing us inside.
The train lurched forward, accelerating into the black tunnel, carrying the two of us in perfectly maintained, agonizing silence.
“The train lurched forward, accelerating into the black tunnel, carrying the two of us in perfectly maintained, agonizing silence.”